A Tired Tigger

Round about now I should be enjoying the company of some amazing friends from work in a staff leaving party at our local Nandos.  Instead I am sat here writing this post and waiting for my tea to be delivered in the from of a Chinese takeaway.  Why, well because I am totally exhausted and as a result physically sick and wobbly on my feet?  I managed to get to work but it soon became apparent that I was not much use when I kept ramming my trolley in to the corner of the aisles and it was hard to focus on lettering and numbers.  I came home and have done nothing but sleep, well that is not entirely true, I did get up to have something to eat.  I am sad that I am not at the party as I have met a really good bunch of people and we have a good laugh together.  Not only that I was going to take my camera and take photographs, mug shots as it were, that is an opportunity missed for sure.

I have never felt so tired before, I am not talking about the tired at the end of a working week and looking forward to two days off tired.  This tiredness runs deeper, I was back to work today after a day and a bit off work and I still feel exhausted.  I slept but it does not matter how long I wake up still tired.  Well the good news is that I am not at work now until a week next Monday so I have plenty of time to recharge the batteries.  I think a lot of sleep and out with the camera is going to be in order after all I have my distinction project to focus on.

I have been tired before but that was mental exhaustion and it is a lot different. Mind you being tired now has brought those dark areas of my depression back up near the surface, almost to close to be comfortable.  I have grown accustom and love the happy go lucky side of life, just like Tigger I like to bounce a lot and I do not intend to let physical exhaustion trigger a lapse back into that dark area.

So here is wishing that all my lovely GOL friends, or as the company likes to call them colleagues, had a fab party and ate, drank and were merry.  O and you may have escaped my camera this time but there will be another opportunity for sure.

Well that is all for now, until the next time take care.

Si x