An angry Monkey

Anger is not a word I associate with myself a lot and it is even rarer for me to outwardly expressed but over the last few days it has been building up inside to the point where I went pop this morning.  Thankfully I popped without anyone being around but it did result in me having a face like a wasp with a smacked bum for a lot of the morning.  I should not have taken it into work with me this morning and should have done my jumping around at home before getting in the car.  You want to have a giggle just imagine me jumping up and down in a car park swearing like a trooper at 3am in the morning!

Why the outburst, well I had the trust I placed in someone safe keeping soundly trodden on over the last few days.  Normally when that happens I deal with it personally and not a sole is any the wiser.  But with all the changes I am dealing with, lack of money and finding a new job at Sainsbury’s or elsewhere I let it get on top of me.

It is strange, out of all the challenges I have faced and have yet to I thought my drinking would be the hardest one but it is not, far from it.  Dealing and coming to terms with my financial situation is proving to be harder than I thought and to quite a degree.  It has left me feeling very venerable and uneasy, not a position I am enjoying, who would?  Over the last few days I have been working on the job front looking at options available and trying to get my head around what the next step will involve.  I would like to be able to keep things the way they are as my time is flexible but needs must.  I have submitted my letter of application for a position at work and reconfigured my online job agency accounts to take into account my time at Sainsbury’s just in case.

Either way I have taken the lessons I have learnt over the last few weeks, the emotions they have created and overwhelmed me with to heart.  Better late than never I am going to clear this financial mess up and get myself back on a sound financial footing.  Unless I can pay for something out right I cannot have it and I am not going to get myself back into debt again.  I will look after what I have got the best I can and plan any future purchased in advance and save if I want to get it.  Step one get a full time job or a job with the hours I need, step two clear up this mess.

As each day passes I am growing accustom to the reality of my current situation and I am adapting my thinking so it does not get on top of me.  Looking back over the last few days I feel disappointed I let work and home cross over so much and that I was not strong enough to be the bubbly chap I like to be.  I love to have a laugh with people and see them smile and that is not going to happen with a face like a sore bum that is for sure.

I have just finished reading a book by a gentleman by the name of Nigel Risner called “It’s a Zoo around here”.  According to Nigel and my boss I am a Monkey with a side of Elephant and I have to agree but I think the split is 95% Monkey 5% Elephant.  According to Nigel the dominant characteristics of a Monkey are as follows:

• ·      Has plenty of ideas.
• ·      Knows how to have fun.
• ·      Enjoys a joke.
• ·      Is very creative.
• ·      Likes examples and pictures.
• ·      Gets bored easily.

I do not have a problem being associated with any of the above.  Now here is what Nigel thinks other people see in a Monkey.

• ·      A charlatan.
• ·      Noisy.
• ·      Manipulative.
• ·      Not serious.
• ·      Unreliable.
• ·      Aggressive.
• ·      An exhibitionist.
• ·      Creative.
• ·      Dynamic.
• ·      Friendly.
• ·      Imaginative.

Again I am happy with the personality traits listed although I do not entirely like the Aggressive one.  Want to know how to address a Monkey, well?

• ·      Ask them for ideas.
• ·      Be energetic.
• ·      Make it fun.
• ·      Keep greetings short.
• ·      Always include a short story or joke.

Want to change a Monkey’s thought process or the way they behave, well you can’t only they can.  A Monkey can say one thing now then something else later yet mean both.  This one confused me for a while but I guess Monkey’s being creative sometimes get carried away when expressing themselves and do not always tell the whole story.  Then when they come to carry it on they get even more creative with the second part and they do not add up, possibly?

How to keep a Monkey’s interest, show them pictures not reports and detail, they like pictures, what a surprise!?

So there you have it I am a Monkey at heart but that is no excuse to feed me peanuts or hand me a banana.

Now this Monkey has spent some of the day catching up on the lack of sleep and also something photography related for once.  I combed through my archive of church photographs and reprocessed some of my early work.  The results of which you can find below.

What’s next well a good nights sleep and lots of bouncing around tomorrow making a mischief of myself I think, Oh and working hard.  But before that I am going to catch up with Arthur Dent in the fourth book of the Hitch Hikers Guide To The Galaxy.  Not my favourite of the series but there is love and sex involved to that more than makes up for it.

Now here’s a rub, just before I posted this I get a message to phone work.  It seems that tomorrow’s work plans have changed and I will be working different hours.  Interesting I get a lay in whoop whoop.

Until next take care.  Pooh x