Keep it simple, one step at a time was the
aim and it was working so well. At the
moment things are not going well as another night with only a few hours sleep
testifies. I had big plans today but
thanks to the lack of sleep it was not possible to carry them out. Instead I tucked myself up behind a trolley
and quietly got on with the shopping until 8am.
The reason for the lack of sleep, a very
busy head that just refuses to clear or allow me to get to my personal box that
was very kindly given to me. It is as if
my thoughts and emotions have been hijacked and are being held to ransom by
myself. The addition of the uncertain
concerning the flat is playing heavily and is not sitting well and I might be
imagining it but something else has changed too yet I cannot get a clear
picture of what. I am beginning to think
I was taking on to much to soon becoming blinkered to the fact that I needed to
consolidate what I had before moving on to the next step. So I have changed my approach slightly and it
is no longer keep it simple it is KISS, Keep It Simple Stupid. So from now on this idiot is going to listen
to KISS first and fore most. If it means
losing everything bar the people I love and care for and photography then that
is what is going to happen.
It is almost like I find myself sitting in
a dark corner crouched with stick in hand waiting for something to come out of
the darkness. Listening to every sound
and movement wondering if it is safe to move out of the corner. I feel a bit like Arthur Dent at the
moment. I finished Douglas Adams Hitch
Hikers Guide To The Galaxy series last night, my annual journey following Arthur
Dent and company around the universe.
Arthur was thrust into a place of infinite number of parallel universes
and spends a troubled time trying to find home.
He succeeds briefly becoming a Sandwich marker but he was ultimately
denied that privilege too and beginning to wonder when he would be at peace he
has the briefest moments when he finally understands that it has arrived. All I want to do now is make sandwiches and
enjoy it, settle down somewhere that will allow me to achieve this. A place where the day is just the right length,
not to long as to become tiresome yet not to short to allow me to make just the
right number of sandwiches. A place
where the weather will make its own mind up but where thunder storms are not
the merest of polite coughs but good enough to clear the air ready for it to
start all over again. A place where
gossip, bitching and bullying are isolated to things that live under small
rocks and there are plenty of smiles, hugs and friendly faces.
Having paid my annual homage to Arthur Dent
I now face the difficult task of picking the next thing to read and I am unsure
in which direction I want to go. I could
briefly continue my HHGTTG journey but under the stewardship of Eion Colfer
with “And Another Thing” and then face the difficult choice of what to read
next. But having finished the Douglas
Adams set and not being able to sleep I hunted my Kindle library for that book
on Photography projects I thought I had.
Having found it I started to read and but after an hour I was not
inspired by any of the projects on offer.
I made myself a drink got myself comfortable in bed and continued
reading and a few chapters later bingo a KISS arrived. A chapter dedicated to a photography project
entitled Keep It Simple Stupid. So that
is going to be my photography project for now.
It for sure it can be interrupted in many ways but that is going to be
half the fun. So the next time I go out
with the camera I am going to have KISS in mind. A photographic project where the aim is to
de-clutter my head and look at the world with a fresh pair of eyes, seeing
beyond what I normally see and take for granted. What this will result in is anyone’s guess
but her goes.
Personally I need to step back to the last
point in time that I was feeling in control, happy and confident because I am
not any of those at the moment. This
chirpy chap needs to get his head down and think and think hard. I have lots of small thoughts populating my
head and I need to sort them out and dismiss that which is not necessary or
that warrants being there at this point in time.
The sum total of everything going on is not
sitting pretty I only hope I have the strength and mind to make the right
choices. Sitting pretty I am not, pretty I am not.
Until the next time sleep well and take
care.
Si x
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