Down but not out.

Down but not out.  It has not been a particularly good week for me; there was of course the withdrawal of my job application, a lack of sleep over the course of the week, my partners’ health and to cap it all a phone call Friday that I could have done without for sure.

I was not expecting the phone call and certainly not ready for what was said to me.  In fact it knocked me flat taking all the wind out of me completely.  It took a few hours to register and it has only just started to sink in.  The subject of the telephone call is going to remain private for now but it could not have come at a worse time.  I went to bed with a very busy head unsure what I was going to do.  One thing was clear I was going to have to do something that I was hoping would never happen.  I have had to put the majority of my camera gear and some of my computer hardware up for sale and I only hope it sells quick enough.

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I have to admit I went to bed thinking of a quick way out of this and that dark place I have distance myself from started to move closure and closure.  But I soon put it back into it’s place.  I might be having a wee bit of trouble at the moment but that does not mean I am just going to let it all walk over me, hell no.  I am not going to lose my footing on the place I find myself that is for sure.  It is going to take a lot more than this to get this chap down.  Whilst my sleep was fitful I did manage to get my head around the situation and start to plan what I was going to do.

I did pop into work today to drop off the letter I was meant to drop off a few days ago and do a wee bit of shopping.  Whoever gets the job I was going to apply for I wish them all the best and will support them whole heartily by working hard, being committed and doing the best job I can, which for some strange reason does not go down to well with certain peeps but that is their problem not mine!  I know I am in for a hard time regarding the time I have had off over the last week and I have no answer other than I needed to be elsewhere other than at work.  I put my personal life first and foremost and would I do it again, yes if required or asked to.

Things personally and at work may not be going to plan but I intend to turn it all around as see it as a positive and make something positive out of it.  I am finding myself with a level of confidence that is new to me and whilst it is taking knocks it is helping me push onwards.  The one thing I am going to be doing is placing my trust in a lot more than I am use to, lets hope it is in safe hands.

Now you will or will not have been wondering how my getting on top of my drinking has been going, well up until this week very well.  Yes hit a bit of a big bump this week and there is no excuse just a lack of will power.

To all my friends who have supported and continue to support me thank you so much, you have been a big help.

Now given where I am currently and the challenges I face my next comment will raise a few eye brows but I am determined to, come hell or high water pay Polperro a visit in the next 6 to 8 months.  I need to go back that is for sure, I need to see, taste and feel its charm, warmth and beauty again.  This got me looking at my "holiday" snaps and although these are not from Polperro I love the candid nature of the following photographs which were taken at Bournemouth.

Until next time take care.

Simon, Si, Socks, Sci-Fi, Pooh x