Sunday, 20 July 2014

Out of sorts of sort

Hasn’t it been warm and muggy of late and what about that thunderstorm the other day?  Personally I love thunderstorms, they are so dramatic, powerful and intriguing.  Watching the sky come alive and the contrast between the dark heavy clouds and the bright lighting is so exciting.  That pause between the lighting and the start of the thunder.  I love how the thunder rolls around the sky making such a rich and deep sound with the occasional sharp slap of thunder just to make sure you were paying attention.  I would love to know what it would be like to be in the middle of a thunderstorm, all that energy and power I bet it would be one of the most exhilarating feelings ever.  A lot of people I know spend all winter waiting for the hot weather and sunshine to come.  Me I don’t have a favourite season or type of weather I love them all.  Well that is not entirely true at the hit of my hay fever suffering in my early teens I longed for rain or autumn and I love rain.  There is nothing better than standing out in the rain looking up at the sky and letting the rain run down your face.  That is unless you have a friend, who like you likes wearing oversized baggy jumpers and standing in the rain.  The two of us use to just stand out in the rain with our baggy jumpers on getting soaked enjoying a glass of wine and chatting.  It was a 1,000 more times refreshing than any hot shower I can tell you and I never caught a single cold or became ill as a result.  It has been a while since I did that but that is mainly down to the fact that someone threw out all my baggy jumpers.

Aside from storm watching what have I been doing?  Well over the last few days trying to get to terms with something that came out of the blue.  Once again there appears to be someone or a group of people taking enjoyment at spreading rumours about me, again the reason is unknown.  I have been on holiday over the last week yet it has come to light that this is in fact not the case.  No according a select few I am in fact suspended from work because I turned up for duties completely drunk.  This is almost as good as the previous one, not quite, but almost.  I am at a lost as to way anyone would bother making something like this up other than to cause me distress and harm.  It did upset me at first not only because it is not true but also it not only affected me but others as well.  I like last time if I find concrete evidence of where this started I will be taking the necessary action but unlike last time I will not stop because of a half hearted sorry.

I have been trying to get my head around why and I do not and cannot figure it out.  Not only that it amazes me that someone can have so little time on their hands to spend it having a poke at me.  After a few days of getting on top of it I am not going to let it get on top of me.  In fact it has made me stronger and more determined to deal with these petty challenges if directed at me or someone else I am close too.  Why do people say so hurtful things, gossip about others especially when they know nothing about them?

Anyway whilst it took up a few days of my time on and off and cost me some sleep I have pocketed it away and if it continues it will be dealt with in the proper manner.  Stupid gossip aside I have been busy working on thinking about the future and applying my keep it simple approach.  This has meant me thinking a lot about my photography and where I want to take it and I have made a big decision.  I am going to focus my efforts on my church, architectural and street / contemporary photography.  This means that a lot of the photographic equipment I have is no longer required so I have been listing it on the web to sell and some of it I am going to change.  Not only will this help me out with my current financial situation but also it will help me focus my mind on my photography.  I am easily distracted and if I have a lens I will try and chance a photograph or theme that I am not focused on.  I need to stop being the Jack of all themes of photography and focus on becoming a master of one or a few.  I should have applied this lesson at the beginning but like working career, especially IT, I was a Jack of all trades and a master of none.  I knew a lot of IT but not enough about a single specific subject.  I am so passionate about photography I do not want it to become a watered down muddy pool like my IT career.  I will not bore you with the details of what camera gear etc, I’ll leave that for me photography blog.

So it has been a lot of reflecting, thinking, deciding and listing.  Not sure what tomorrow is going to bring but then that is another day.

Until next time take care.


Si x

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