Small steps.

Good morning, afternoon or evening.  Just covering all the bases as being on the internet this could read at anytime, any place anywhere!  Well day two of my abstaining from alcohol, my first full day without its influence, so how is it going I hear you ask?

Well going to bed last night without the dull numbing of wine or tacky taste of beer in my head felt good.  I went to bed relaxed and not anxious about the night ahead or the day that followed.  Now when I have been drinking actually dropping off to sleep is very easy but a deep and meaningful sleep is impossible.  Now I had the reverse problem getting to sleep with a clear and ever so slightly restless mind was presenting itself.  Try as I might I could not settle and tossed and turned for a few hours.  So I decided to take a sleeping tablet given to me by my doctor for such occasions.  Bingo off I popped into a deep and dream sleep and I melted into my bed comfortable and relaxed.  Then in the early hours of the morning I awoke to pains in my tummy and chest, quite uncomfortable ones actually.  It turns out I should have taken the tablet with food an hour before going to bed, ops.  I know what I did not do was fully relax and read before going to sleep, well from now on that is going to be the case.

As a result I have been mostly sleeping, doing a little be of shopping and picking up the rest of my home / mobile photographic studio.  This means I can start to work on my self portrait project and I have been giving that a lot of thought of late.  Shopping was a bit of a struggle and if I am honest I did think about buying a bottle of wine but that is as far as it got.  Once outside the beautiful sunshine soaked up any further thoughts of wanting a drink.

Do I feel different today, yes, the effects of the sleeping pill aside I feel untroubled and relaxed.  Yes I have not done much but I have not been walking around in a cloud of fog.  It is going to be interesting to see how work goes tomorrow given I enjoy my job so much now!  I think the small step today was going shopping and not buying any alcohol and dismissing the thought quickly.

So today is going to end with me giving my reading glasses their maiden voyage as I read before going to sleep.  What I am going to read well the story starts on a small blue green planet, an ape like descendant, a yellow bulldozer and an alien from another planet.  Start my annual pilgrimage to Douglas Adams three months late.

All I know about tomorrow is that I have work to attend, other than that nothing is planned.

So until tomorrow, sweet dreams and take care.

Si x