Tired

An Ape like descendant sat at his computer brought this post to you.  The computer is located on a desk, the desk is in a flat and the flat can be found in a small town located in the Royal county of Berkshire.  The county is located on a smallish island with great name and colourful history.  This island is located on an insufficient small blue green planet that is situated in the western spiral arm of the Milkway.

The Ape like descendant has just got home from his 8^th straight day at work and he has to be honest, he is not feeling very well.  God I love my job but today was just too much.  The longer the morning drew on the more difficult I found it to concentrate and focus and the mistakes were starting to creep in.  I had to dismiss myself earlier than usual as I could not carry on.  We are so busy it is difficult not to work long hours and everyday.  This chap has pushed it a little to far this week and is now suffering.  This means the wagging fingers will be twitching and ready to wag at me.  Well enough is enough I am not about to make myself ill again.  I am going to work hard but I am also going to treasure my time off.  I know every little helps but not at the expense of my health, I have been there before and I am not going repeat myself.  I fought long and hard to get myself somewhere near an even keel I am not about to let anything set me back.

I have too much in my life that is special and getting myself in a position where I cannot enjoy it is not an option.  I did have some good work related news today, I got my weekly IPH (items per hour) score, and it was 131.7.  I feel very proud of that score especially as it was over 7 continuous days of work with some of those being very long days too.  It also means I beat one of our lovely but mean Team Leaders by 0.2, yes you know who you are putting me on a bread shop today lol.  We have to achieve an IPH of 110 to meet set targets and have zero complaints but this is sometimes very difficult to do.  It is a lot of fun trying to achieve the target and like I have said before I take pride in my work, it is a big responsibility doing someone else’s grocery shopping.

I bumped into an old work colleague and friend from my West Berkshire Council days today.  A lady with whom I worked closely with for 20 years, a fiery character that exploded when we ran one of her programs wrong but one of the best computer programmers I have ever met.  Her programs never failed and if they did it was usually someone other than her that made the mistake.  As computer operators we had targets to meet too and that was 99% of programs run without issue.  Aside from a rocky start I think I only failed to me target once in 10 years of operating.  It was so good to see her again especially as she looks so well and is still enjoying her passion of horse racing.

As I sit here writing the blog, feeling wobbly and tired yet full of lots of good feelings and emotions it got me thinking.  I have experienced and seen some very nasty human behaviour in the past and still do so today but do you know what makes it easier to handle, all the amazing people that I have in my life.  I still struggle to understand why people can be so rude, cold, shallow, bullies and false to those around them.  It makes me wonder if they are true to anyone including themselves.

We are amazing Ape like descendants, full of so much emotion and creativity.  We invited the digital watch, sandwich maker and bag free hover to name a few amazing things.  But none of that matters if we cannot get the simplest of things right, respecting and loving fellow descendants.  We have the gift to show so much affection and love it is untrue.  Whether it is the briefest of smiles, a look, the tenderness of a touch or kiss or passion or making love we have the ability to share so much.  Yet we get so much of it wrong, is it because we are afraid of losing something that we have and that feels so good?  If that is the case maybe we should spend more time appreciating what we have and understanding that than worrying about losing it.  Why are we so afraid of sharing our emotions and feelings ?

A very special song brought today’s post to you, a song written by Dr Hook called “When you are in love with a beautiful woman”.  I am in love with a very beautiful woman and it feels so good.  Being in love and making love is very special, to be able to share such amazing feelings and emotions is heaven and should never be lost.

We have the ability to be so creative, so passionate and caring yet we still have the ability to do so much that is wrong.  We have become so complicated, society is so complex now that we struggle to be human now a days.  We are pushed to the limit and for a lot of people it becomes a struggle to function.  We are bombarded every minute of every day with news from multiple sources, especially the internet.  As a collective I think we are we losing sight of was is important, are we so wrapped up with information overload or is it just me being over sensitive?

See what happens when this Ape descendant gets over tired, he over thinks and gets all confused and muddled.  So I am going to call it a day as I need to indulge in my sweet dreams.

Until the next time take care.

Si x